i gotta check into rehab

yes this song has been on repeat since yesterday and its not going off...so anyways after trying to track down the boy all day he finally picks up at 11pm...mind u i had been calling him since like 6pm....he had been ignoring said he didnt kno wat to say to me n shit...did i do something? naw ur good u didnt do anything...so why u ignorin me i dnt get it....u aint do nothin imma call u back though....then this morning i told him i was over it just to ease the tension i still hadnt told him wat happened i just didnt feel like bein depressed anymore n didnt want him to be either so i said you can get over it cuz i did...then after a few back n forths i get a txt that says "ur an asshole u dnt kno wat you want i dnt care no more" confused much??? im at my register at work n my hrat sank...n here come the fukking tears...lucky for me it was early n ppl were still at work so i just folded scarves n shit n tried to get myself together...basically i got the tables turned on me n evrything i said he said just to piss me off...im so sick of the back n forth n he just pissed me of again i cnt take it anymore...i feel like this is a game like seriously it happens to often for it to be anything legit like seriously i cnt do this anymore like how do i go from bein the one that got their feelings hurt to the one who ruined everything...he finds a way to make that happene every time i swear like i just dont get it...its like if i stay mad to long its gonna turn around n be my problem n its fukkin not at all im not feelin this shit really but watevs man i swear....ill be bakk later for something less dramatic

&& ill never give myself to another the way i did to ya

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im not feelin it

well i hope everyone had a wonderful christmas holiday ill do posts of my findings but rite now im blogging from the car on my way to church n im pissed...i got forced to go to church. not even forced but also conned and im fukkin pissed. y u ask??? well first off let me say im not an atheist or anything of that nature but i really hate being forced against my will to do stuff i really dnt agree with...i dnt agree with goin to this church bcuz the ppl here are so fake especially the pastor and hes speaking as a write this n i dnt wanna listen to any of the bs thats gonna come out of his mouth like for instance how u gone fukk wit half the women in the church n u gotta wife?? i understand that everyone is human and all but dnt preach gods word to me and you go against everything that ur sayin its bs n thats y wen i woke up i told my momma i didnt wanna go bcuz of that n she said ok but look where i am this is bs n im pissed n im here bcuz my gma manipulated my mom into comin so she in turn manipulated me. like im really pissed at my gma cuz she manipulates the hell outta ppl n shes just as fake too for even still attending this church and even wanting me to come than she smiles in my face cuz i told her i wasnt comin n now im here so i played her to the left...sorry gma i love you dearly but you got me hott fa real rite now so you could go head rite now. i jus cnt take the fakeness thats goin on in my face rite now like seriously im soooo mad rite now i have such an attitude n the nxt time my gma reaches over me to gossip wit my mom imma punch her!! lmao i wanna listent to my ipod rite now...no blasphamy or anything just a little I am...no sasha fierce though cuz she curses lol n OMFG im sitting here n my mothers husband the MOST unholy person I kno is in the choir wit the damn mike...talks so much shit(excuse my french lord) on the pastor, church, n most definately the choir n ur ass is up here singin away...i just cnt take it anymore i need to leave seriously...n the nxt time my gma looks at me bloggin this i mite have to pucnh her...lmao no but seriously let me revert my mind to something else besides this bogus church im gonna blogg about somethin else in a new post cuz i jus cnt take this n later...probly another day ill post pics or a vlog of my xmas ok im outta this crazy blogg...peace V

jingle bell rokk

sooo going to so many malls has brought to my attention that some stores are REALLY GROSS lmao there are just some stores i will NEVER IN LIFE shop at and some stores that i will always love forever and ever....sooo im gonna do a top ten of stores i hate && 10 i love! lmao cuz im bored and this is an important topic...to me at least

top ten most hated stores

o10...wetseal..evry bitch wears it...IM SOOO OVER IT! maybe ill go for a white tee or colored tee but thats it

o09...charlotte ruse (however u spell it) never realy like it anyway

o08...my lady boutique...ewwwhhhh

o07...rue 21...aint been in there in a minute...hate it!

o06...aeropostale OMG THIS STORE....i hate it lmao

o05...boscovs...glad they realized it DID NOT belong in Kaufmanns old spot

o04...579 the have plastc pumps...enuff said

o03...body central...also have plastic pumps...sick

o02&&o01 are interchangeable && equally gross RAINBOW && RAVE...never will i ever

top ten most loved stores

o10...macys...nordstrom...bloomingdales...neimans...saks...pretty much all the good department stores

o09...H&M...they have cute stuff u can throw together

o08...Bebe=LOVE

o07...arden B

o06...betsey johnson in ATL LOVES IT

o05...metro park...also in the A n LOVES IT

o04...up against the wall if i want a blac label n im in VA lo;

o03...forever 21 FAVEEEEEE

o02...juicy coture LOVEEEE 

o01...&& my number 1 favorite store is......GUESSSSSSS!!!! i have a guess shirt on rite now actually lol i loves that store!! && their sales lmao 

mini haul!

so heres the haul from yesterday && i finally found the rest of the stuff i bought on blakk friday lmao sooo its in picture form this time...on my bare matress bcuz i am washing my sheets && cleaning my room sooo yea thats my comfy but bare mattress...enjoyi wore this to bowling last nite...really cute from forever...like 15$

some accessores...my beret, bow pin && bow head band=LOVE...i still cnt find my bow ring though :-(

my liquid leggings that were quite a chore to find let me just say lol

 && finally i got this from guess...it was 70$...i paid 10$...enuff said

watch out for the bigg girls

soo yesterday ws a good day...work wasnt bad even though they tried to get me to work till 9 i threw the deuces at em but OMFG the boy came to visit me at work again n guess wat!!! he found me this time :-D it was soooo sweet it made my day n made me smile from ear to earrr lmao but seriously it was great then after that hit the mall n got a few things ill put em in another blogg and then went bowlin. it was me shimmy n twin. we had a fukkin ball for real hahahaha...like omg noone likes us n its so funny we got to many stares from the bigg girls wen we came in it was sooo funny for real like i dnt understand y bitches r mad sorry ur fat...sorry u dress wack as hell...sorry u wear fake louis fanny packs...sorry u wear the same scarf everytime i see you like...do i need to go on? any who it was fukkin funny as fukk last night and i loved it now im watching the steelers fukkin loose i hate ben n omg the titans jus stepped on the terrible towel :-O WTF MANNN!!! but i blame ben hes fukking garbage get him the fukk outta here please!!! anyway i guess ill do a mini haul in a little bit when i getthe energy lol

boy u make me feel so beautiful

soo all of my titles lately r lovey dovey n ish...soo wat say sumthin bout it hahaha but anywho!! im pretty fuxxing tired at this moment && for some reason the wind is blowing really loud but watevs...this is gonna be a random blogg cuz im sleepy mmk sooo yea

o01...work was to long but cool for the most part

o02...my love mite get me this guess coat for xmas :-D

o03...i got paid :-D

o04...i wanna go get those betsey earrings but maybe santa will get them for me lol

o05...i need my nails done

o06...i want so much ish for christmas lmao...im gonna get it all or there will be hell

o07...i saw this ring i wanted today...and these boots...and these coach sneakers...and some makeup...and these tights...lmao im insane but sooo serious

o08...i had mcdonalds today...yummmmmmmm

o09...im still hungry

o10...the best thing ever happened today...the boy came to visit me at work...butttt hes a goof n went to socks where i usually am but i was in jewelry n he didnt kno n he had togo bakk to work..soooo i didnt see him :-((( but it was sweet of him to try lol maybe he will try again  peaceV