T.O.N.Y. dnt call no more

So yesterday, I finally got some freakin sleep. My sleeping patterns have been awful and pretty much non existent. I think I'm stressed the f*kk out...like I'm the last person to stress cuz it causes wrinkles...but maybe I just hide it or something. I couldn't quite put my finger on what I was stressed out about though. Like it could be plenty of things...i.e. school change, school work, Perry, family, frieds...no clue but I think I may have figured out. See I thought it was Perry at first but I'm pretty positive it's not. I let that roll of my bakk pretty smoothly actually. So I'm gonna blame it on school and my indecisiveness. I know for a fact that I am not coming bakk to akron nxt semester...I was gonna transfer to Pitt...heres the thing idk if I'll get in and honestly idk if i really want to. I was talkin to Tom && B 2 nights ago n i asked them both like would it be weird if i came bakk to CAU? They both said no but then preceded to ask me y the f*kk I left anyway...I told them bcuz of my dependence on my momma lol (which is like 70% true) they both than told me i need to grow the f*kk up and honestly I do need to. I need to be a lot less dependent on my mom and go to school without complaining about everything. The other 30% of why I left though is bcuz of money...like payin for skool n the suites wen I was at CAU...same thing goes for here at Akron like CAU was pretty much my dream skool but I left cuz I felt like my momma was strugglin to pay everything. I miss the hell out of it honestly I jus try not to say anything about it. I would love to go bakk but prolly wont be able to cuz I wont have anywhere to stay n stuff . I really dnt kno bout Pitt either though I'm tryna put off my transcripts...i requested them from Akron but i dnt feel like doin all the bs to get em from clark again n honestly I dnt want to lol. I just wish skool wast so freakin expensive its makin me feel like its gonna be so impossible for me to stay focused on it wen I worry bout all the other expenses. It's quite annoying I must say but watevs...I feel like thts wats stressin me out n keepin me awake all day n night. I need to make a decision on what Imma do wit my life though...I dnt wanna quit school at all I wanna finish on time or faster n then go to law school. But it gets harder n harder to stay focused and positive about everything. Another thing is pledging...I been thinkin bout that a lot lately...and it's definitely something that I wanna do! Gonna be damn near impossible at Pitt for reasons i wont express on here lol but its possible at CAU...anywho I needs to figure somethin out soon! But on a lighter note I'll be home monday! yayyyyyy!!! im sick of friggen akron lol. Welp I'm pretty much out of things to type at this point plus Liar Liar is on...n its gettin funny cuz he cnt lie now! and I should prolly clean my room..there are clothes everywhere(wat else is new?) it looks like my closet threw up hahahah niceeeee....anywho maybe I'll be bakk later to discuss something else...PEACE BETCHES!