i gotta check into rehab

yes this song has been on repeat since yesterday and its not going off...so anyways after trying to track down the boy all day he finally picks up at 11pm...mind u i had been calling him since like 6pm....he had been ignoring said he didnt kno wat to say to me n shit...did i do something? naw ur good u didnt do anything...so why u ignorin me i dnt get it....u aint do nothin imma call u back though....then this morning i told him i was over it just to ease the tension i still hadnt told him wat happened i just didnt feel like bein depressed anymore n didnt want him to be either so i said you can get over it cuz i did...then after a few back n forths i get a txt that says "ur an asshole u dnt kno wat you want i dnt care no more" confused much??? im at my register at work n my hrat sank...n here come the fukking tears...lucky for me it was early n ppl were still at work so i just folded scarves n shit n tried to get myself together...basically i got the tables turned on me n evrything i said he said just to piss me off...im so sick of the back n forth n he just pissed me of again i cnt take it anymore...i feel like this is a game like seriously it happens to often for it to be anything legit like seriously i cnt do this anymore like how do i go from bein the one that got their feelings hurt to the one who ruined everything...he finds a way to make that happene every time i swear like i just dont get it...its like if i stay mad to long its gonna turn around n be my problem n its fukkin not at all im not feelin this shit really but watevs man i swear....ill be bakk later for something less dramatic

&& ill never give myself to another the way i did to ya

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im not feelin it

well i hope everyone had a wonderful christmas holiday ill do posts of my findings but rite now im blogging from the car on my way to church n im pissed...i got forced to go to church. not even forced but also conned and im fukkin pissed. y u ask??? well first off let me say im not an atheist or anything of that nature but i really hate being forced against my will to do stuff i really dnt agree with...i dnt agree with goin to this church bcuz the ppl here are so fake especially the pastor and hes speaking as a write this n i dnt wanna listen to any of the bs thats gonna come out of his mouth like for instance how u gone fukk wit half the women in the church n u gotta wife?? i understand that everyone is human and all but dnt preach gods word to me and you go against everything that ur sayin its bs n thats y wen i woke up i told my momma i didnt wanna go bcuz of that n she said ok but look where i am this is bs n im pissed n im here bcuz my gma manipulated my mom into comin so she in turn manipulated me. like im really pissed at my gma cuz she manipulates the hell outta ppl n shes just as fake too for even still attending this church and even wanting me to come than she smiles in my face cuz i told her i wasnt comin n now im here so i played her to the left...sorry gma i love you dearly but you got me hott fa real rite now so you could go head rite now. i jus cnt take the fakeness thats goin on in my face rite now like seriously im soooo mad rite now i have such an attitude n the nxt time my gma reaches over me to gossip wit my mom imma punch her!! lmao i wanna listent to my ipod rite now...no blasphamy or anything just a little I am...no sasha fierce though cuz she curses lol n OMFG im sitting here n my mothers husband the MOST unholy person I kno is in the choir wit the damn mike...talks so much shit(excuse my french lord) on the pastor, church, n most definately the choir n ur ass is up here singin away...i just cnt take it anymore i need to leave seriously...n the nxt time my gma looks at me bloggin this i mite have to pucnh her...lmao no but seriously let me revert my mind to something else besides this bogus church im gonna blogg about somethin else in a new post cuz i jus cnt take this n later...probly another day ill post pics or a vlog of my xmas ok im outta this crazy blogg...peace V

jingle bell rokk

sooo going to so many malls has brought to my attention that some stores are REALLY GROSS lmao there are just some stores i will NEVER IN LIFE shop at and some stores that i will always love forever and ever....sooo im gonna do a top ten of stores i hate && 10 i love! lmao cuz im bored and this is an important topic...to me at least

top ten most hated stores

o10...wetseal..evry bitch wears it...IM SOOO OVER IT! maybe ill go for a white tee or colored tee but thats it

o09...charlotte ruse (however u spell it) never realy like it anyway

o08...my lady boutique...ewwwhhhh

o07...rue 21...aint been in there in a minute...hate it!

o06...aeropostale OMG THIS STORE....i hate it lmao

o05...boscovs...glad they realized it DID NOT belong in Kaufmanns old spot

o04...579 the have plastc pumps...enuff said

o03...body central...also have plastic pumps...sick

o02&&o01 are interchangeable && equally gross RAINBOW && RAVE...never will i ever

top ten most loved stores

o10...macys...nordstrom...bloomingdales...neimans...saks...pretty much all the good department stores

o09...H&M...they have cute stuff u can throw together

o08...Bebe=LOVE

o07...arden B

o06...betsey johnson in ATL LOVES IT

o05...metro park...also in the A n LOVES IT

o04...up against the wall if i want a blac label n im in VA lo;

o03...forever 21 FAVEEEEEE

o02...juicy coture LOVEEEE 

o01...&& my number 1 favorite store is......GUESSSSSSS!!!! i have a guess shirt on rite now actually lol i loves that store!! && their sales lmao 

mini haul!

so heres the haul from yesterday && i finally found the rest of the stuff i bought on blakk friday lmao sooo its in picture form this time...on my bare matress bcuz i am washing my sheets && cleaning my room sooo yea thats my comfy but bare mattress...enjoyi wore this to bowling last nite...really cute from forever...like 15$

some accessores...my beret, bow pin && bow head band=LOVE...i still cnt find my bow ring though :-(

my liquid leggings that were quite a chore to find let me just say lol

 && finally i got this from guess...it was 70$...i paid 10$...enuff said

watch out for the bigg girls

soo yesterday ws a good day...work wasnt bad even though they tried to get me to work till 9 i threw the deuces at em but OMFG the boy came to visit me at work again n guess wat!!! he found me this time :-D it was soooo sweet it made my day n made me smile from ear to earrr lmao but seriously it was great then after that hit the mall n got a few things ill put em in another blogg and then went bowlin. it was me shimmy n twin. we had a fukkin ball for real hahahaha...like omg noone likes us n its so funny we got to many stares from the bigg girls wen we came in it was sooo funny for real like i dnt understand y bitches r mad sorry ur fat...sorry u dress wack as hell...sorry u wear fake louis fanny packs...sorry u wear the same scarf everytime i see you like...do i need to go on? any who it was fukkin funny as fukk last night and i loved it now im watching the steelers fukkin loose i hate ben n omg the titans jus stepped on the terrible towel :-O WTF MANNN!!! but i blame ben hes fukking garbage get him the fukk outta here please!!! anyway i guess ill do a mini haul in a little bit when i getthe energy lol

boy u make me feel so beautiful

soo all of my titles lately r lovey dovey n ish...soo wat say sumthin bout it hahaha but anywho!! im pretty fuxxing tired at this moment && for some reason the wind is blowing really loud but watevs...this is gonna be a random blogg cuz im sleepy mmk sooo yea

o01...work was to long but cool for the most part

o02...my love mite get me this guess coat for xmas :-D

o03...i got paid :-D

o04...i wanna go get those betsey earrings but maybe santa will get them for me lol

o05...i need my nails done

o06...i want so much ish for christmas lmao...im gonna get it all or there will be hell

o07...i saw this ring i wanted today...and these boots...and these coach sneakers...and some makeup...and these tights...lmao im insane but sooo serious

o08...i had mcdonalds today...yummmmmmmm

o09...im still hungry

o10...the best thing ever happened today...the boy came to visit me at work...butttt hes a goof n went to socks where i usually am but i was in jewelry n he didnt kno n he had togo bakk to work..soooo i didnt see him :-((( but it was sweet of him to try lol maybe he will try again  peaceV

baby you stole my cool

So I have been working quite a bit lately which explains my lack of blogging. Sorry loves but um yea work is pretty good despite the fact that tomorro i work from 6:45am- 3pm. its cool though i guess but other than that life is pretty great i mean me n perry are on great terms although i said i would not put him into this blogg he's been making me really happy lately lol sooo i must blogg about it even though he's a loser n laughs at me for blogging lol but watevs. wat else is new?? Played the fukk outta morgans fake ass...aint talked to this broad in a week n she fially decides to hit me up on tuesday i think it was....ummm no bitch than had the audacity to lie n be lke my life has been in shambles since u left...well u aint it me up so it must not have been like wtf I dnt really care cuz thats on her n when she told me to hit her up if i wanted to go out she got played soooo far to the left that she some how ended bakk up on the right lol naw but fa real I was dyin like wat i need to hit u up or to go out? you cnt drive...u dnt have a car to drive... u dnt supply me with money...and i have ther REAL friends soooo keep it movin hoe...in other news although this perry situation is makin me happy i still have some concerns about it...idk how to really feel about it all but that wi be discussed at a later date...i gotta get ready for work n stuff....soooo peace out V

Blakk Friday Haul

omg...its finally here...so enjoy. p.s. newness to the page! so like it...mk thanx!

iim PISSEd

ok so it is friggen 3:15am n um guess wat still  no video cuz umm blogger is bein a pu..y n not letting me upload...so guess wat i had to make a new youtube account n do it via that but guess wat else...youtube is acting like a friggen amish buggy goin 3 mph sooo if this doesn't work by the time i wake up...I'M JUST GONNA DO PIC'S WHICH WILL BE GAYYY BUT WATEVS.....im gonna go read bloggs for a little than go nite nite's soooo pray for a video blogg soon ugghhhh get it together blogger sheesh

where's your head at?

i have been sooo busy like let me tel you...i had an interview on tuesday at macys n got it :-). then on wednesday...yesterday...i had orientation BORING! and so ghetto...im not even gonna get on the ghetto girls that were there. after that i had MOES!! my mommy took me :-0 n i got the best burito ever...mmmmm. then after that I went to the studio w/ the boy. it was actually a really fun time with him and just bein in the studio. it was a really good time fa reals. and after that i drove to Columbus with my mommy for her job...3 hrs n u kno i fell asleep cuz i was exhausted from being up pretty much all nite n going to orientation at friggen 8am...then we had WHITE CASTLE!!! IT WAS SO GOOD!! i had great food yesterday. so anyways it has come to my attention that I am a makeup WHORE!!! found a few new lines//stores n im probly gonna go insane wen i get paid lmao...also i want these betsey earrings!! they're friggen HOTT!! but im broke lmao but hopefully i'll get them very soon umm im gonna make a video blogg in a little bit of my blakk friday haul sooo stay tuned for that it should be up in an hr or less...maybe lol i gotta go do my hair...im gonna put pics up if i do it rite hahaha but anywho im gonna go do my hair n this video blog! V deuces lol

im retarded && accidentally deleted this...but the bakk button works lol

I am trying so hard to do these theatre notebook entries but goddamnit I didn't do anything I was supposed to for this class this entire semester. I was supposed to go to a live theatre production and a musical, dance performance or an art exhibit...gues who didn't do that...JENSEN. so now I am sitting here googling && youtubing the hell out of everything in this world trying to find things that will at least get me a C on this B.S. but as you can see I am here blogging cuz it makes me happy. Today has been a realy long day and I am too ready to go home. Morgan is working my last nerve like we always joke around...but shes being spiteful today. not like shes hurting my feelings or anything but shes being annoying which is why she has been tuned out pretty much half the day or I just said something extremely bitch to her...either way shes pissing me off cuz it'slike shes pissed at me for something but idk what because she hasn't said anything to let me know...shes jus bein very rude. but i mean whatever I just say soomething to piss her off or ignore her lol thats what I do best. I mean seriously if you have a problem speak the fukk up don't just try to out bitch me cuz thats not gonna happen at all mmmk thanks. OOO wat was really funny was wen i asked her if i could have some of her apple juice and she said no...n i was like well u were eatin my ruffles so watever im gettin some n she goes" i'd like to see you try" and looks attara and says " she always tries to say o well I gave you this so i'm gonna have some of your stuff" in reference to me...first of all please try n stop me from getting anything cuz as she said this i got a cup and opened the fridge and got apple juice... but I mean don't try n get tough cuz it doesn't phase me...and another thing. I only asked cuz you were there cuz any other time I just get it...and as I'm typing this I think she might be mad about MY ruffles that Sydnie bought ME...cuz she got them off the top of the fridge & started eatin em n I was like get wat u want n im takin em...lmao that would be toooo funny if she was mad about that cuz guess wat they were fukking mine n it was like a o.99 bag. like i have no problem sharing them but don't try n take over my shit n she was all like well you aint buy em...well guess wat i asked sydnie to get em on her way over...AND she specifically said they were mine...but anyway this weird bitch is takin up to much of my blog...let me get bakk to my papers n ill probly blogg alittle bit later...V...thats my peace sign hahahahaha

been gone for a minute, now im bakk w/ the jump off

sooo yea its been about a week...THANKSGIVING WAS AMAZING!!! it took away quite a lot of my stress. i can actually sleep well now which is suprising considering the weeks before it. i had a great time with the fam and blakk friday was amazing!!!! i had fun with my mommy too lol. i chilled with quayla n kristina on saturday which was really fun and i hung out with shimmy again. we went to this house party than went dwn the strip...then to oakland it was a fun night for real. than sunday...bakk to akron ughhhh.but truthfully idk wat to write about minus the fact that all i do is hw n study n pull all nighters cuz i have so many finals to take b4 december 8th n guess wat ppl...its the gotdamn 3rd...so let me get my ass up off of here so i can be friggen productive lol